*istirahat sejenak*

miss you guys...

GILA... keisengan yang berlanjut banget nih.. seneng banget bisa kenal... haduhhhh..

*random mode on*

i miss jakarta but i will miss perth too..

well, its not just because im used to perth already BUT .. its just .. nice city ..

d'oh!!!

back to report... stupidity report!!!

Our Production and Feelings ..

Kadang, untuk jadi orang yang baik musti sabar. nah loh!?!?? 

today, i realize one thing in my life. ive trust people too much and sometimes it is really hard to understand why.

kadang gwe ngga percaya orang n

gomong apa tentang orang lain , tapi today i DO believe that tho...

hey, this afternoon was my 2 production and 1 rehearsal for access 31.

HAPPY??!?!? not!!

hhahaha well, those pic is my group set for next week. WISH ME LUCK GUYS...

barusan gwe nonton the phantom of the opera and the spirits within and baru mau nonton the holiday. ASEM BGT KAN YAH... SENDIRIAN, NONTON BEGINIAN LAGEHHHH.. NGGA KURANG PATHETIC APA COBA GWE!!?!?!?

ahhaha.. kangen neh sama keluarga, kadang kalo lagi sendirian gini gwe tuh kangennyaaaaa minta ampunnnnnnn.. pengen ngobrol bareng gituh sama orang2 di rumah... siapaaaa aja dech pokoknya..

I KNOW... sometimes i spent so much time wif frens and x.. but still I LOVE MY FAMS TOO MUCH..

i know.. yah2...

hari ini gwe kan jalan yah, i feel like im in the wrong world.. why!??! well... 

THOSE SKINNY SYNDROME HAS BEEN ATTACKING ME AGAIN AND AGAIN TODAY...

too many times... kayanya HATI gwe sama OTAK gwe tuh bener2 udh sakit bgt sampe gwe harus rela yang namanya DIEM dan cuman nerima doank.. SOMETIMES gwe ngerasa useless buat semuanya.. SEMUANYA... gwe males abis..

CUMAN..

SAYANGNYA..

GWE sebenernya capek sih, cuman sayangnya gwe selalu stuck in the middle of something that is not IMPORTANT AT ALL!!! FUK!!!!!!!!

haduh, udah ah kayanya.. sepertinya saya sedang males banget!! kenapa sih !!!

udh ah, this is wasting my time actually... 

trusting people.. 

ALONE.. he eh udh biasa banget ga sih saya. anti social banget.. hahahah

kayanya yah kalo dipikir2 semuanya tuh salah banget.. SALAH..

if i live .. salah ..

...

feelings??? ... CURRENTLY BROKEN HEART ...

brain???... CURRENTLY DAMAGED ...

body???... CURRENTLY FAT AS A HIPPO ...

attitude??? ... CURRENTLY NOT GOOD ...

mind??? ... CURRENTLY SUICIDAL THOUGHTS .. 

.... thats all folks ....

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. SELFISH .

YES BABY... HE CALLED ME "PLAYING SELFISH CARD WITH HIM"

oh well, nvm.. i dont care anymore..

kadang gwe mikir,,, kadang gwe mengkhayal.. gwe bisa sama dengan bie.

bie. kadang gwe mikir. gwe nih sama sebenernya sama.

kadang juga.. gwe reflek bilang sama dia.. i cant let that bie go from my life.

gwe nih lagi wreck banget because this thing that has been happening for the last 5 years.. it happen again and again.. NOW..

i told him about it and GUESS WHAT PEOPLE? ... I THINK IVE GOT WRONG FEELINGS OR SHOULD I SAY.. MAYBE IVE GOT BRAIN DAMAGE,,, OR WTVR.,, BECAUSE I LET HIM KNOW ABOUT IT!!!!

FUCK!!! YES.. THATS ALL ..

kadang gwe mikir, kalo gwe ngga ada. semua orang ngga akan harus dibebani sama orang kaya gwe. orang yang nyusahin semua orang. orang yang cuman bisanya ngadu ke orang. without any reason..

i miss my family too much. i cant get them here.. i need them..

i want them to know about everything .. apa yang selama ini bikin gwe suicide for the last 5 years ... selama gwe disini..

im a very good drama person, kadang gwe mikir,,, bisa banget yah gwe sampe gwe nipu semua orang yang ada di dalam lingkungan gwe.. gwe ini ga pantes hidup.

so guys, if u ever ever miss me... pray for me.

bye